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Day 173: The last one.

So, it’s here. It came and went. My last day of school; my junior year. At first, this journal was nothing but an idea; to see if I actually could do it. I gave it a couple weeks max. But here it is, finished. All of my memories are not only in pictures, but in writing, so that I can look back to see how I was feeling at that time in my life.

My whole junior year flew by. I can remember becoming dehydrated during marching season, and rushing to my government class to make it look like I wasn’t sweating all that much. I remember running down the halls during spirit week with weirdo outfits on and a lightsaber in hand. Having my friends by my side, deciding to start soccer late, hating the schedule change, and then loving it. It seems like everything has happened, and I’ve grown up in the process. Without the experiences of this year, I would never have learned what it’s like to lose the people you love the most, but to gain people you love just as much. I would have never allowed myself to actually just love without this year; to love people more, and appreciate what I’m blessed with. I spent my whole junior year with Matt by my side, cheering me on for whatever I set my mind to. I spent this year without Rachel, my only friend last year when everyone turned away. My best friend, Bree didn’t step foot in the same high school as I did, almost tearing us apart. I became closer with Robyn, who’s now living with our family, only making all of us better. My friends learned how to coexist despite our weird quirky personalities. Everything is different, now.

Nothing is perfect still, but I think we’ve all learned a lot from each other in 9 months. I’ve learned that everything I once stood against, was everything I couldn’t and still can’t live without. I’ve learned that no matter how many birthday’s you have, you become wiser by the situations you pick yourself up from. I’ve learned that faith takes perseverance, and failure is almost guaranteed in the process. I’ve learned a lot of things, and I can say that I’m proud of myself for being this mature for 17. My family is still going to be disfuntional, I’m still going to bottle things up until I explode, and I’m still going to procrastinate. I’m still the same, just 9 months older, and full of memories.

God’s beauty never ceases to amaze me.

Day 172: Thursday.

I want that top so bad. I want that exact one, but I don’t know where to find it. I got a bathing suit top today, but its not as cute as this one. Anyway, today was the last day of band and spanish II. I keep forgetting that tomorrow is the last day of school; I used to get so excited for stuff like that. I got a skirt for 4 dollars today. I need to study for stats, but I just don’t think it’s going to happen. The band picnic was really good; awkward, but good.

i’m crushed.

Day 171: Wednesday.

I’m not exactly sure how to feel about this day. I want to feel happy because of the band meeting, because i’m done with chemistry and because I got to see rachy today. But I’m sad because of the tension between parents. Here’s what I learned today.

• modd squad had three girlfriends all at once.
• he drew hearts all over his college notes with his current love interest.
• he makes disgusting jokes behind the scenes.
• too many marshmallows is not a good thing.
• i need to start doing more.
• i say really stupid things when i’m mad at my mom.

i’m ready for summer, but that doesn’t exactly mean freedom. it just gives my mom more excuses to boss me around. oy vey.

The World Cup starts Friday at 8 am.
This stadium will host my favorite countries.
Spain, Brasil, Australia, and the Netherlands.

I will be spending my first few weeks of summer watching men tear up the field with the rest of the world.

Day 170: Tuesday.
The last full day of school. It’s all a breeze from here. We did our ap lit presentation, which means that I’m officially done with that class (thank the Lord). I’m starting to like the idea of being a senior, I’m just getting really lazy, and that part freaks me out. I took a 4 hour, much needed nap today. Tomorrow I have my chemistry exam and a band meeting. I can’t believe this is my last season.

I’m sorry that I took you for granted.